Friday, July 28, 2017

I Ran Today

I actually got up and worked out today. I can't believe what a huge accomplishment this feels like. I mean, I didn't do it without knowing Tracy was waiting for me. I'm not that crazy motivated. But hey, I didn't cancel either.

This summer, Tracy did a running class. It's called Beginner's Luck and it prepares you to run your first 5k. She's taken it before, and obviously she can already run a 5k. We do it every Friday. But there are motivational speakers and a chance to win a pair of shoes every week. And it has really re-focused her running.

She's follows the plan they gave her, which is an interval-based running schedule. She runs four times a week. And I can tell. Her endurance is growing, her speed is getting faster and she is absolutely hooked on running. It used to be that I kind of dragged her along and pushed her, but now I almost feel like she is pushing me. Which I love!

And it's totally motivating. I mean, I feel motivated. She posts it on facebook and all day long I think, Tracy got up at 6 AM and ran on her own, you should go running tonight. But then I don't.

I am reminded of the excitement of getting faster and going further. Which, let's face it, is the only good thing about running. And now I am starting to think, maybe I should start going further and faster. 

Today we ran a 5k, using our 3/2 intervals in 43:23. That's actually faster than we have gone in a year. And I feel like we could definitely go faster than that. But we could also start running 4/1 intervals. Tracy's class ended Wednesday, with an actual 5k race. Dan and I went to cheer her on. She ran it just under 40:00. So I know she's capable of pushing herself more. And I know that I can run a 5k in 36 minutes, with just a little push or more practice.


My 2017 goal is still to run my fastest 5k. Which would be something like 33 minutes. But I've got a long way to go. This would be the ideal time to take advantage of Tracy's running enthusiasm and motivation to drag myself along. If only I like running. With her, I think we could do an entire half-marathon at 4/1 intervals.

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Send Help

I can not get my life together. Ever since I got back from vacation I have just been hit and miss. Follow my macros for three days, then go out for ice cream! Go to the gym to days in a row, then take naps instead.

My motivation and focus is just gone.

Where is it?

How do I get it back?

Right now, macros are too overwhelming (who knows why) so I have been trying to limit myself to 1400 calories and eat over 100 grams of protein. I am doing fine with my eating until Dan suggests Mexican food. And then I am so stressed out about finding a new car, that I just say okay!

I worked out Friday morning - run with Tracy, Saturday morning - BodyCombat class and Sunday I mowed. Then nothing. Like it's not worth my time.

Like dealing with this car is a part time job on top of my full time job. I don't have time for my other part time job - health and fitness.

And tonight I have a social obligation, so I won't be starting back then.

I kind of like this 1400 calorie thing. But I doubt I could stick to it too long. Especially when Mexican food is involved. But I am proud of myself for eating 125 grams of protein yesterday without even trying. It's just so natural now. Why would you eat a meal without tons of protein. It's the only way I know.

And my weight has just hovered int he 7-8 pound range.

But I am not doing anything right with my life. So I can't come on here and tell you what's working.

So I am just here to say: send help. Find my motivation. Send it to me. Smack me. Just do something.

Monday, July 24, 2017

Launches, Birthdays and Cars

This is what my weekend was filled with! Saturday morning was the new BodyCombat Launch. I usually don't like to go to those because they are too crowded. But I had missed last week while I was on vacation, and my need to punch stuff outweighed my need to not be so close to people. It turned out to not be crowded at all, so I am more than happy I went. I even won a t-shirt. Not that I can see myself wearing it...

Then I got some errands run, ate some lunch, showered up and headed out to meet Jennifer as we were going to Omaha for our friend Jen's birthday. But as soon as I started driving, my car started making a bad noise. Some sort of scraping a long the wheel, brakes area. I freaked out and made her come get me instead of meeting them. Then I tried to forget about it and celebrate Jen's birthday.

I ate too many snacks and didn't really show any restraint. But we did leave before the cake came out. Which, as much as I love cake, I hardly need to be eating more.


Then I could hardly sleep Saturday night. Worried about my car. Not knowing if I should try to drive it again, if I was ruining it, if the tire would fall off. If we'd all die! After some research, and asking people I know, it seems to be the wheel bearing. That's probably a $500 repair. That's not cheap, but I am not too worried about it.

What I hate, is that I am literally in the process of researching, test-driving, and buying a new car. I know my car is only valued at $1500-$2000 trade-in, so paying a $500 bill the week before I turn it over just sounds sickening. And there seems to be quite a bit of back and forth on if I should drive it the six miles across town to my mechanic.

So I was stuck at home on Sunday. I mowed the lawn in brutal heat and was depressed about my situation. Eventually, my mom came over and we went and got pedicures, looked a couple of new cars for me, and I drove her around in my car to hear the noise.


By the end of the night, she had decided that I shouldn't drive it across town, that Steve (her boyfriend) would come and look at it this week, and that I could borrow her car (she has two) until I have mine fixed.

Alls well that ends well. But I still didn't sleep great on Sunday. Just worried about it. I have high-anxiety about not feeling safe. And my car and my house are the two places I expect to feel some safety. So when my house is leaking or my car is growling, my whole life is in tatters.

Friday, July 21, 2017

My Week in Workouts

I had a short week of workouts, but I am proud of myself for getting right back on the horse as soon as I returned from vacation. I often get a I haven't worked out for three days, why start now attitude, that is not good. So I hit the gym running my first day back. And I feel like I have a good pattern going. I still need to develop a new lifting routine, but I'll get there.

On Tuesday I went to the gym for HIIT and arm weights. I hadn't done HIIT on the treadmill in a long time. I started at 7.1 mph and 1.0 incline. I sprinted for 20 seconds and then jumped to the side for 40 seconds. I went up in speed each time (to 7.8) and then back down. I did 14 intervals. My heartrate was sky high and it was a great workout. My legs hurt for days. I can climb a mountain with no stress on my leg muscles, but sprint for 20 seconds and I am dead! Then I did an arm circuit of 3x10 on biceps, triceps and shoulders. 


Wednesday, the heat index was 108 when I left work. By the time I got home and cooled off, I didn't want to leave again. So I used my spin bike in the basement. It was nice and cool and dark and I didn't have to wear a shirt! I did a steady state 40 minutes while I watched a TV show on my phone. I must have forgotten to start my heartrate monitor, but I would guess I burned about 350 calories with the effort I was putting in. 


Thursday I worked an 11 hour day. I got my 10,000 steps in at work. I called that my workout. 

Friday morning Tracy and I were up early to meet for our weekly run. The humidity and the heat advisory definitely had me struggling. There was nothing easy about this run. But we got it done and now I am hiding inside the rest of the day. 


I am eager to get back to a full week of a routine! And I am planning on putting together some sort of lifting routine so I can keep progressing!

Thursday, July 20, 2017

No More Blogger App

The blogger app began to get really glitchy in the last year. Whenever I started typing it would shut down, without saving and I would have to start again. This made it really difficult for me to blog from my phone. Well not difficult, impossible. Somtimes I could type two or three words and hit save before it would quit. But that's not really a way to write anything useful.

I would still use it to upload pictures, because those were already on my phone and it didn't shut down while doing that. So I had to type all my posts at work (I don't have a home computer) and I had to upload all my photos on my phone.

Then I needed space on my phone - because I have apparently used up every inch of space. I needed to download a new app in order to watch TV at my house (don't get me started on why I have to have space on my phone to now watch TV.) So I deleted the Blogger app with the intention of reloading it when I needed it again. I often live in a delete-one-app-to-download-a-new-one cycle. It sucks. But I am not about to spend more money on a new phone.

You may have noticed that I have 1) not been blogging as often, and 2) not had any pictures recently.

After my vacation, I went to reload Blogger back on to my phone so I could upload all my pictures. I couldn't find it. It wasn't listed at all. So I did some research online and apparently you can't get it on iPhones any longer. There are some third party apps, but I am scared to put those on.

Boy that makes it difficult to upload photos now. You have to use the web browser. On your phone. I need something better. Or just get used to that method!


Wednesday, July 19, 2017

2017 Restart

Now that I am back from vacation, it is time to get back to business. I haven't been really focused since the middle of June and even then I remember thinking I was just going through the motions.

I still have almost six months of this year left and I am determined to make it the best one yet. I still need to do a pull-up and I still need to run my fastest 5k.

The good news is: vacation didn't too much damage to my weight. Since the 4th of July, I had been tracking, but not sticking to my macros, perfectly. I just stayed under my 1900 calories every day. And that change in carbs every day made my scale jump around quite a bit. But I was hanging around the 6-7 pounds from goal area. That's seems to be pretty much exactly where my body likes to live.

This morning, after five days of vacation, I weighed in at: 8 pounds from my goal weight.

It's time to buckle down and lose those eight pounds. All while getting faster, running longer and pulling my damn body up over a bar.

But I am going to need a plan. I am going to have to run more than twice a week if I am going to get faster. And I am going to have to work my back more than never. Just doing assisted pull-ups isn't going to get me where I want to be. So I need to add in an actual back day. As much as I hate working back, it's the only way.

Here's what I am thinking:

Monday - HIIT + Arm weights (biceps/triceps/shoulders)
Tuesday - 30 minute RUN + Pull-ups (park)
Wednesday - REST
Thursday - HIIT + Shoulders and Back
Friday - RUN with Tracy
Saturday - BodyCombat + Chest and Back
Sunday - HIIT + Legs

This will work my back in the gym two times plus the pull-ups at the park. It will also work my shoulders twice, which is something I really like to work, plus like to look at. I will only do chest once a week and even then only bench press. I am not that interested in chest right now.

The HIIT will hopefully help with my running speed and burn off some of these last pounds.


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Summer Vacation

I just returned from my summer vacation. We went to Utah for a family reunion. Though Utah is probably not my most preferred place to vacation, it was actually really nice to get away. And we definitely found fun things to do while we were there.


Dan and I flew out of Lincoln on Thursday evening. It was the perfect time to travel. I worked 9-1 in the morning (so I got to do my favorite Storytime of the week!) I got home and ate lunch, took a 40 minute nap, packed and had a friend take us to the airport. We spent 4-11 flying and making connections, but it didn't ruin the whole day like flying 7-3 might. We arrived in Utah at 11:00, checked into our hotel and then slept for like 4 hours!

The next morning we were up at 5am for a hike!


We hiked up a mountain to Timpangos cave. The Park Ranger said it was a "moderate hike". I am not sure if I have really climbed a mountain before. I am sure we did some exploring in Estes Park once and somewhere else in Colorado with my friend Russ. But this is the first time I ever remember making it to the top. I was out of breath a few times, but no more than while running, and my legs didn't hurt at all. I was so proud of my mom for making it. She had to take a lot of breaks. But a year ago, her hip would have hurt too much to walk even half of it. Now if I could just keep the momentum with her and exercise. This was my favorite part of the vacation. We all made it to the top. Going down was the hardest part for me. It really worked my shins to slow down. If I wasn't trying to wait for others I might have gone faster, but I'm not sure that would have felt that much better. 


So for lunch I rewarded myself with this chocolate dome. I mean, when on vacation...


That afternoon we went to check out the Salt Lake City library. I got to meet Wonder Woman. 


Satruday morning we were up early again to take in a Farmer's Market. It was cute. And my mom family loves to go to markets when they're on vacation. But if you can't buy fresh fruit and veggies, I am not certain I understand the point. I did get the best little souvenir: a journal made from the pages of a children's book. Hand made. I chose The Cat in the Hat. I'm not sure if I will really use it, or just look at how cute it is. 


Saturday afternoon we went to the town of Park City. This is where the Winter Olympics were held. So there is a lot of skiing in the winter. In the summer you can zipline, slide down a super-long slide (the luge track!) and do gondola rides over the moutains. I was with people who weren't interested in those things. But I could be talked into going back. Well, not for ziplining! The town itself is just an Old Market kind of area full of tourist shops: art, food, bookshops, gift shops, ice cream, etc. I love these kinds of places. 


The people I was with weren't the kind that wanted to zipline. They were the kind that wanted to drink wine. And that's okay too. In the evening we had a family dinner event at one of my mom's cousin's house. The night before they only had white wine to drink. Dan wanted red wine and I wanted margaritas, so we stopped at Target on the way. I looked up and down the aisles for a good ten minutes before I asked a clerk. She informed me that you can only buy alcohol from state stores. There are like seven in town. None close to us. So much for drinking at this family gathering. 


On Sunday I got to meet Wendy. She's one of my fit sisters and she lives there. Though there are about 30 gals in the group, I would probably only call up 5-10 of them if I was visiting. She is definitely one I wanted to meet. I would have loved to workout with her while I was there. But we didn't have a car, we were 25 minutes from where she lives and my time was pretty booked up. So we settled for lunch. It was so fun. It gives me hope that all the sisters can have a meet up someday. Somewhere. 


The rest of the time was spent with my family. Playing cards. Talking about the "old days" learning about my second cousins and what they're up to in life. 

Like I said, it was fun. We hardly slept and I am sure I gained some weight. But we also hiked up a mountain and did a lot of family bonding. A perfect little summer vacation. 

Friday, July 7, 2017

My Week in Workouts

I haven't posted my workouts in three weeks. And the last two weeks they have been paltry. So there's not a lot to report. And I'd like to come on here and say I have a great new plan, but I am leaving on vacation next Thursday, and I don't want to start anything new until I get back.

Right now I think I want to focus on running. Tracy is taking a running class one of the running clubs in town offers. I didn't sign up for it (even though she asked me to several times) because it's on Wednesday evenings, which is just not good with my summer schedule. Any other night and I would have. But it's got her re-inspired. And I want to take advantage of that.

She is going running four times a week. And even though I don't want to do that schedule, I want her to motivate me and us to push each other. I need to get back to one run with her and one on my own each week. And then I need to add sprints or treadmill runs to one or two of my weight days.

This week I just need to get back to working out in general. Tracy is on vacation so the only thing that is motivating me is BodyCombat and lawn work.

But at least I have my eating back in check from the holiday.

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Pact: gone but not forgotten

At the beginning of the year, I signed up for the Pact App. You agree to work out X amount of times per week (five for me!) and then you are paid by the slackers who don't live up to their agreement. I also wagered to log my meals every single day.

If you are the slacker you lose $5/day.

I never missed.

I also, made very little money.

But it did get me to work out a few times that I otherwise might not have. At least twice last week while I was sick.

But in general, they weren't good workouts and in at least two cases, I probably would have been better just sleeping.

On average I made about $1.50 a week. But I was just getting paid for doing what I was going to do anyway.

My goal was to keep it in there for one year to see how much I made. But last week they sent an email out that said they were going out of business. So I guess it's over. I could have done it another week. But I decided the end of six months was a good time to stop.

So I finished up my week and cancelled.

I made $36.90!

For just working out and eating. And logging it all. Which can get tedious, but it was worth it.

I am a little disappointed I didn't make it a whole year. $74 a year would have got me a new pair of running shoes.

As it is, I can get half a pair.

But I might look for a similar app. I need something to motivate me...

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

So Sorry

I've been gone a long time. I have so many excuses. But I can't remember them all now. Basically, work was crazy busy. Then I got sick. For like ten days. Not that I missed work, but not feeling well really drags you down. Then I was on vacation for the holiday. And now here I am.

And obviously I haven't wanted to log in to say how awesome I am doing, because it would be a lie.

And so I avoided blogging because I had nothing to say.

But now I have so much to say.

Like, my weight is up because I was on vacation for four days.

And I have been half-assing my workouts.

And eating like it's national hot-dog eating day.

And margarita drinking.

Cause it kind of was.

But I am tired of feeling fluffly. And tired of feeling weak. And wish I was moving forward in my workouts instead of falling back.

But I leave for vacation a week from tomorrow. And part of me is all, why start now.

But I won't fall into that pattern.

I have one week to hit it hard.

And then I will be in the right mind-set for vacation. Which will be: eat wisely and workout.

But for now I need to go to the grocery store. And get back to the gym.

And back to blogging.

And over this cough once and for all.