Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Wednesday Weigh-in: Week 2

Starting Weight: 12.2
Week 1 Average: 9.1
Week. 2 Average: 8.4
Week 2 Lowest: 7.2

This has been a weird week. My weight's been very steady in the 7-9 range. So it still shows a lost from last week's average, but the low isn't as low as last week.

I'm just happy to never see that 10 spot again.

I have stuck to my numbers well this week. Or I should say, I have stayed under my numbers well this week. And I am wondering if that's why it's a bit higher. I haven't always hit my carbs or proteins, and I just settle for being under. I don't know if actually hitting my protein every day helps, but staying consistent is probably important.

I've been doing okay with my workouts. I did buy a car. Which was a stressful part of my weekend. Then Samantha started Kindergarten, which was a stressful part of my Monday. Then my back has been hurting off and on. But I have gotten in some good workouts.

I have a four day weekend this week and a five day weekend last week. And I am super-looking forward to those.

Plus my first goal was to make it two 14 days of macros, and I am on thirteen and feeling good. I thought I might not make it through the weekend (with a family-reunion type thing) but it has turned out to only be one family meal together, and I am pretty sure I can make that fit!

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Wednesday Weigh-In: Week 1

Starting Weight: 12.2
Average Week 1 Weight: 9.1
Lowest Week 1 Weight: 6.8

My weight steadily fell this week. After sky-rocketing to 13 pounds from my goal weight, it started heading back down rapidly 11,9.6,8.2,7.8,7.2, and this morning 6.8.

I am very happy with this. Part of my hopes that it just keeps plummeting. But I am pretty sure this is where it will stall for a while. That's okay.  I was very happy to see that six back on the scale. If I could get back to 3 or 4, I would be back to my low before the chaos of Summer Reading ensued.

I am back to my workout schedule too. Having both food and workouts on track, really helps keep my life in order. I am excited about working out, since I have new things to work on. That's exciting too. Somehow, I need to make sure my weights don't fall by the way-side during this 8 weeks of running. I still have pull-ups I need to do.

I also need to buy a car. I am in a little bit of a limbo, but it's going to happen soon. Hopefully. I know what kind I want now, and I just need to decide how much I am willing to spend. And find one that passes all the tests. And wait until Steve can take a look at it for me.

I am also doing well on my more sleep plan. Though I currently feel like ALL I do is work, workout, eat and sleep. But I definitely feel better when I get more sleep. And sometimes I wake up just a minute before my alarm goes off, which is awesome.

I am finishing up seven days of macros today and planning on 15 straight before I head to Columbus for a family reunion of sorts.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Five Days in a Row

I finally have my eating back on track. Last Wednesday, I told you that I had to get it together. And I didn't. I spent the day with Samantha, and we ate out and ate french fries and it wasn't good.

Then my weight was up to 13.2 pounds on Thursday.

Basically, I was gaining one pound a day, and it was a bad direction.

So Thursday I got it together.

And I had a healthy Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday.

We ate out a couple of times, but I logged it all. I stayed at or below my macros. We had a picnic, and packed healthy meals. We went grocery shopping, and I actually got things I need. I did some meal prepping, so I have plenty of chicken for lunches this week.

And my weight steadily fell. Until this morning, it was back to the 7 pounds it likes to stay around. Without trying to hard.

Which makes me feel much better.

Like I am going in the right direction, and like I can do this.

Monday, August 7, 2017

Four Miles was Hard

I made up my own eight week running plan. It looks like this:

I am still not sure if there's a reason to do the 6 mile race. Though having Sammie watch me complete a race is appealing. Though she already thinks I am so strong I could be the next America Ninja Warrior. So I guess I have nothing to prove to her. Do I have anything to prove to myself?

For now, I just need a plan and I want to run more. You know I love a chart. And "take another Combat class" doesn't really need a log. So I am going to try this. I completed Week 1 last week:

I skipped my weight lifting day and I took a Combat class instead of running the first three miles (but I thought that was a good "heavy cardio" replacement!) So I am already slacking. Other than that, I got my 5k with Tracy done on Friday. We did 3/2 intervals and my phone totally acted up and said we ran 6 miles. Luckily, we know where our path turns around and ends, so we knew we'd done 3.1 miles, and that was the approximate time.

On Sunday I was excited (yes, excited!) to run 4 miles. I wanted to see how easy it was. I added two more intervals to my run plan (taking me up to 11 intervals - 55 minutes) and was planning on about an hour workout. I started off fine. But that last mile was brutal. My run times went from 12:00 miles to 13:00. And my walk speeds slowed down too. It was my legs that were dead, not my lungs. The two minutes was enough time to get my heartrate down. I just felt like my feet weren't moving any more. I am sure it will take a few weeks to get used to higher mileage. My legs were saying, ummm, we just did this the other day. We're supposed to take a week off!

I listened to an audiobook. A lot of people have suggested this, and in the past it hasn't worked for me. I need the music to break up the workout and to give me a beat. It worked pretty good this time though. I think the intervals broke up the workout more. And I told myself it didn't matter how slow I went so I wasn't concerned with my step pattern. I thought I would have to turn it off half-way through and start my music. But I didn't.

On the other hand, maybe the run would have felt better if I had music. Or maybe I am just not used to being out there for an hour by myself. With nobody to talk to. People say running is this great "me time". Those people must be introverts.

I sent Tracy a link to the 10k. I said I *might* be interested. She said she *might* take a look and let me know. I'm not ready to commit to being a runner again.

Thursday, August 3, 2017

IF I were training for a race...

I may have stated earlier this week that I was considering following some sort of training plan. For running. A half-marathon. I know. That was crazy, right? Then I saw this interesting 10k coming up in September. I could run a 10k again. That's the sort of distance I could get behind. But it's only four weeks away, and most 10k training plans seem to be 8 to 10 weeks long. And assume I am already running 10-15 miles a week. I am not. 

The thing is: running intervals, is totally different than running straight. The first time I ran, I completely concentrated on running three miles without stopping and then running four and running five and finally running six. But running doesn't have to be that way. 

When I finish running a slow 3/2 interval with Tracy, I am ready to be done because sitting is more enjoyable than running, but I am not so dead tired that I must lay down. I could easily go another three intervals. And that would be 4+ miles. I'm sure I could do 3/2 intervals for an hour. And that would be close to 5 miles. So if it were race day, I could power through to six. 

But if I could already do it, than what am I training for? Speed I guess. And I don't want to worry about that. Really I just want the training plan to give myself a schedule. 

So here's what I found. A beginner's plan for running a half-marathon. It has three days of running. One long run and two other days that are 3-5 miles. I could easily add those into my week. It has a cross-training day that I would love to make my BodyCombat class. And then it has a second cross-training day that I could do HIIT and arm weights at the gym. It still has two days off. I feel like I could do this. Though I would never do the long run on my own. More than an hour out there and I would be bored out of my mind. 

I am nearing the best thirteen weeks of weather this state ever has. If I am going to devote time to hitting the pavement. It is now...

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday

Starting Weight 12.2

I am embarrassed to type that. But maybe putting it in writing will get me to act on it. I have to do something. Well the something is, I need to stop eating. Way too many untracked, unmeasured meals. Way too many handfuls of M&M candies on the counter. Way too many meals out to eat because I can't make time to go get groceries.

It has to stop today. I already ate a piece of pizza for lunch. Because that was free at work. But I can make that fit. I can turn it around.

I have to.

I need 14 straight days of perfect macros. That will get me back in the habit again. Then I am out of town for a family weekend. But I will get right back to it when I return.

I have this. I can do hard things.

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

August 2017

As of today, Summer Reading 2017 is officially over. This is always such a relief. And it has left me with a clean slate. I have a fresh start to finish summer strong. I am excited that nicer weather is on the way and I have several days off to enjoy the summer fun after the kids are safely back in school. I am currently about 4 pounds higher than I started Summer, and I am not about to end that way. So here's to a fresh start.

Here are some of the goals, or things I have been thinking about for August:
  • I want to run more. I am contemplating following some sort of training plan. Our city is thirteen weeks away from a half-marathon, so several people I know have been gearing up to start their training. I have to admit: I have looked at the plan and considered following it. I have maybe (just for a second) contemplated running it. Could I do the whole thing in 3/1 intervals? Could I run for almost three hours? Do I want to? Would I want to? Would Tracy do it with me? If I mention it to her could I still back out? Why would I come out of running retirement for that? Why would I spend $90 to run? Could I train with her, and then not actually run the race with her? Wouldn't I feel cheated? So many thoughts. And then I remember, I hate running. But I need something new to focus on.
  • I absolutely need to get back to tracking and carb-cycling. I have started and stopped this so many times in July. I can't seem to get back in a pattern. But I know it works. I like my numbers. I just need to commit. 
  • I need to sleep more. Last night I got eight hours of sleep and it felt so amazing. I made this a goal for June, and I really did a good job. So I am listing it again. I mean, I woke up on my first alarm and didn't feel like death. Eight hours is a thing of beauty. The only days I can't get 8 hours is when I am working out in the morning. And I guess I am willing to sacrafice for that. I don't need to sacrifice for HGTV.
This is me, at my last program yesterday. Happy because it's almost over, but also holding back tears, because 265 people came to the program and it was chaos! Good Riddance Summer Reading 2017!

Friday, July 28, 2017

I Ran Today

I actually got up and worked out today. I can't believe what a huge accomplishment this feels like. I mean, I didn't do it without knowing Tracy was waiting for me. I'm not that crazy motivated. But hey, I didn't cancel either.

This summer, Tracy did a running class. It's called Beginner's Luck and it prepares you to run your first 5k. She's taken it before, and obviously she can already run a 5k. We do it every Friday. But there are motivational speakers and a chance to win a pair of shoes every week. And it has really re-focused her running.

She's follows the plan they gave her, which is an interval-based running schedule. She runs four times a week. And I can tell. Her endurance is growing, her speed is getting faster and she is absolutely hooked on running. It used to be that I kind of dragged her along and pushed her, but now I almost feel like she is pushing me. Which I love!

And it's totally motivating. I mean, I feel motivated. She posts it on facebook and all day long I think, Tracy got up at 6 AM and ran on her own, you should go running tonight. But then I don't.

I am reminded of the excitement of getting faster and going further. Which, let's face it, is the only good thing about running. And now I am starting to think, maybe I should start going further and faster. 

Today we ran a 5k, using our 3/2 intervals in 43:23. That's actually faster than we have gone in a year. And I feel like we could definitely go faster than that. But we could also start running 4/1 intervals. Tracy's class ended Wednesday, with an actual 5k race. Dan and I went to cheer her on. She ran it just under 40:00. So I know she's capable of pushing herself more. And I know that I can run a 5k in 36 minutes, with just a little push or more practice.

My 2017 goal is still to run my fastest 5k. Which would be something like 33 minutes. But I've got a long way to go. This would be the ideal time to take advantage of Tracy's running enthusiasm and motivation to drag myself along. If only I like running. With her, I think we could do an entire half-marathon at 4/1 intervals.

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Send Help

I can not get my life together. Ever since I got back from vacation I have just been hit and miss. Follow my macros for three days, then go out for ice cream! Go to the gym to days in a row, then take naps instead.

My motivation and focus is just gone.

Where is it?

How do I get it back?

Right now, macros are too overwhelming (who knows why) so I have been trying to limit myself to 1400 calories and eat over 100 grams of protein. I am doing fine with my eating until Dan suggests Mexican food. And then I am so stressed out about finding a new car, that I just say okay!

I worked out Friday morning - run with Tracy, Saturday morning - BodyCombat class and Sunday I mowed. Then nothing. Like it's not worth my time.

Like dealing with this car is a part time job on top of my full time job. I don't have time for my other part time job - health and fitness.

And tonight I have a social obligation, so I won't be starting back then.

I kind of like this 1400 calorie thing. But I doubt I could stick to it too long. Especially when Mexican food is involved. But I am proud of myself for eating 125 grams of protein yesterday without even trying. It's just so natural now. Why would you eat a meal without tons of protein. It's the only way I know.

And my weight has just hovered int he 7-8 pound range.

But I am not doing anything right with my life. So I can't come on here and tell you what's working.

So I am just here to say: send help. Find my motivation. Send it to me. Smack me. Just do something.

Monday, July 24, 2017

Launches, Birthdays and Cars

This is what my weekend was filled with! Saturday morning was the new BodyCombat Launch. I usually don't like to go to those because they are too crowded. But I had missed last week while I was on vacation, and my need to punch stuff outweighed my need to not be so close to people. It turned out to not be crowded at all, so I am more than happy I went. I even won a t-shirt. Not that I can see myself wearing it...

Then I got some errands run, ate some lunch, showered up and headed out to meet Jennifer as we were going to Omaha for our friend Jen's birthday. But as soon as I started driving, my car started making a bad noise. Some sort of scraping a long the wheel, brakes area. I freaked out and made her come get me instead of meeting them. Then I tried to forget about it and celebrate Jen's birthday.

I ate too many snacks and didn't really show any restraint. But we did leave before the cake came out. Which, as much as I love cake, I hardly need to be eating more.

Then I could hardly sleep Saturday night. Worried about my car. Not knowing if I should try to drive it again, if I was ruining it, if the tire would fall off. If we'd all die! After some research, and asking people I know, it seems to be the wheel bearing. That's probably a $500 repair. That's not cheap, but I am not too worried about it.

What I hate, is that I am literally in the process of researching, test-driving, and buying a new car. I know my car is only valued at $1500-$2000 trade-in, so paying a $500 bill the week before I turn it over just sounds sickening. And there seems to be quite a bit of back and forth on if I should drive it the six miles across town to my mechanic.

So I was stuck at home on Sunday. I mowed the lawn in brutal heat and was depressed about my situation. Eventually, my mom came over and we went and got pedicures, looked a couple of new cars for me, and I drove her around in my car to hear the noise.

By the end of the night, she had decided that I shouldn't drive it across town, that Steve (her boyfriend) would come and look at it this week, and that I could borrow her car (she has two) until I have mine fixed.

Alls well that ends well. But I still didn't sleep great on Sunday. Just worried about it. I have high-anxiety about not feeling safe. And my car and my house are the two places I expect to feel some safety. So when my house is leaking or my car is growling, my whole life is in tatters.

Friday, July 21, 2017

My Week in Workouts

I had a short week of workouts, but I am proud of myself for getting right back on the horse as soon as I returned from vacation. I often get a I haven't worked out for three days, why start now attitude, that is not good. So I hit the gym running my first day back. And I feel like I have a good pattern going. I still need to develop a new lifting routine, but I'll get there.

On Tuesday I went to the gym for HIIT and arm weights. I hadn't done HIIT on the treadmill in a long time. I started at 7.1 mph and 1.0 incline. I sprinted for 20 seconds and then jumped to the side for 40 seconds. I went up in speed each time (to 7.8) and then back down. I did 14 intervals. My heartrate was sky high and it was a great workout. My legs hurt for days. I can climb a mountain with no stress on my leg muscles, but sprint for 20 seconds and I am dead! Then I did an arm circuit of 3x10 on biceps, triceps and shoulders. 

Wednesday, the heat index was 108 when I left work. By the time I got home and cooled off, I didn't want to leave again. So I used my spin bike in the basement. It was nice and cool and dark and I didn't have to wear a shirt! I did a steady state 40 minutes while I watched a TV show on my phone. I must have forgotten to start my heartrate monitor, but I would guess I burned about 350 calories with the effort I was putting in. 

Thursday I worked an 11 hour day. I got my 10,000 steps in at work. I called that my workout. 

Friday morning Tracy and I were up early to meet for our weekly run. The humidity and the heat advisory definitely had me struggling. There was nothing easy about this run. But we got it done and now I am hiding inside the rest of the day. 

I am eager to get back to a full week of a routine! And I am planning on putting together some sort of lifting routine so I can keep progressing!

Thursday, July 20, 2017

No More Blogger App

The blogger app began to get really glitchy in the last year. Whenever I started typing it would shut down, without saving and I would have to start again. This made it really difficult for me to blog from my phone. Well not difficult, impossible. Somtimes I could type two or three words and hit save before it would quit. But that's not really a way to write anything useful.

I would still use it to upload pictures, because those were already on my phone and it didn't shut down while doing that. So I had to type all my posts at work (I don't have a home computer) and I had to upload all my photos on my phone.

Then I needed space on my phone - because I have apparently used up every inch of space. I needed to download a new app in order to watch TV at my house (don't get me started on why I have to have space on my phone to now watch TV.) So I deleted the Blogger app with the intention of reloading it when I needed it again. I often live in a delete-one-app-to-download-a-new-one cycle. It sucks. But I am not about to spend more money on a new phone.

You may have noticed that I have 1) not been blogging as often, and 2) not had any pictures recently.

After my vacation, I went to reload Blogger back on to my phone so I could upload all my pictures. I couldn't find it. It wasn't listed at all. So I did some research online and apparently you can't get it on iPhones any longer. There are some third party apps, but I am scared to put those on.

Boy that makes it difficult to upload photos now. You have to use the web browser. On your phone. I need something better. Or just get used to that method!

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

2017 Restart

Now that I am back from vacation, it is time to get back to business. I haven't been really focused since the middle of June and even then I remember thinking I was just going through the motions.

I still have almost six months of this year left and I am determined to make it the best one yet. I still need to do a pull-up and I still need to run my fastest 5k.

The good news is: vacation didn't too much damage to my weight. Since the 4th of July, I had been tracking, but not sticking to my macros, perfectly. I just stayed under my 1900 calories every day. And that change in carbs every day made my scale jump around quite a bit. But I was hanging around the 6-7 pounds from goal area. That's seems to be pretty much exactly where my body likes to live.

This morning, after five days of vacation, I weighed in at: 8 pounds from my goal weight.

It's time to buckle down and lose those eight pounds. All while getting faster, running longer and pulling my damn body up over a bar.

But I am going to need a plan. I am going to have to run more than twice a week if I am going to get faster. And I am going to have to work my back more than never. Just doing assisted pull-ups isn't going to get me where I want to be. So I need to add in an actual back day. As much as I hate working back, it's the only way.

Here's what I am thinking:

Monday - HIIT + Arm weights (biceps/triceps/shoulders)
Tuesday - 30 minute RUN + Pull-ups (park)
Wednesday - REST
Thursday - HIIT + Shoulders and Back
Friday - RUN with Tracy
Saturday - BodyCombat + Chest and Back
Sunday - HIIT + Legs

This will work my back in the gym two times plus the pull-ups at the park. It will also work my shoulders twice, which is something I really like to work, plus like to look at. I will only do chest once a week and even then only bench press. I am not that interested in chest right now.

The HIIT will hopefully help with my running speed and burn off some of these last pounds.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Summer Vacation

I just returned from my summer vacation. We went to Utah for a family reunion. Though Utah is probably not my most preferred place to vacation, it was actually really nice to get away. And we definitely found fun things to do while we were there.

Dan and I flew out of Lincoln on Thursday evening. It was the perfect time to travel. I worked 9-1 in the morning (so I got to do my favorite Storytime of the week!) I got home and ate lunch, took a 40 minute nap, packed and had a friend take us to the airport. We spent 4-11 flying and making connections, but it didn't ruin the whole day like flying 7-3 might. We arrived in Utah at 11:00, checked into our hotel and then slept for like 4 hours!

The next morning we were up at 5am for a hike!

We hiked up a mountain to Timpangos cave. The Park Ranger said it was a "moderate hike". I am not sure if I have really climbed a mountain before. I am sure we did some exploring in Estes Park once and somewhere else in Colorado with my friend Russ. But this is the first time I ever remember making it to the top. I was out of breath a few times, but no more than while running, and my legs didn't hurt at all. I was so proud of my mom for making it. She had to take a lot of breaks. But a year ago, her hip would have hurt too much to walk even half of it. Now if I could just keep the momentum with her and exercise. This was my favorite part of the vacation. We all made it to the top. Going down was the hardest part for me. It really worked my shins to slow down. If I wasn't trying to wait for others I might have gone faster, but I'm not sure that would have felt that much better. 

So for lunch I rewarded myself with this chocolate dome. I mean, when on vacation...

That afternoon we went to check out the Salt Lake City library. I got to meet Wonder Woman. 

Satruday morning we were up early again to take in a Farmer's Market. It was cute. And my mom family loves to go to markets when they're on vacation. But if you can't buy fresh fruit and veggies, I am not certain I understand the point. I did get the best little souvenir: a journal made from the pages of a children's book. Hand made. I chose The Cat in the Hat. I'm not sure if I will really use it, or just look at how cute it is. 

Saturday afternoon we went to the town of Park City. This is where the Winter Olympics were held. So there is a lot of skiing in the winter. In the summer you can zipline, slide down a super-long slide (the luge track!) and do gondola rides over the moutains. I was with people who weren't interested in those things. But I could be talked into going back. Well, not for ziplining! The town itself is just an Old Market kind of area full of tourist shops: art, food, bookshops, gift shops, ice cream, etc. I love these kinds of places. 

The people I was with weren't the kind that wanted to zipline. They were the kind that wanted to drink wine. And that's okay too. In the evening we had a family dinner event at one of my mom's cousin's house. The night before they only had white wine to drink. Dan wanted red wine and I wanted margaritas, so we stopped at Target on the way. I looked up and down the aisles for a good ten minutes before I asked a clerk. She informed me that you can only buy alcohol from state stores. There are like seven in town. None close to us. So much for drinking at this family gathering. 

On Sunday I got to meet Wendy. She's one of my fit sisters and she lives there. Though there are about 30 gals in the group, I would probably only call up 5-10 of them if I was visiting. She is definitely one I wanted to meet. I would have loved to workout with her while I was there. But we didn't have a car, we were 25 minutes from where she lives and my time was pretty booked up. So we settled for lunch. It was so fun. It gives me hope that all the sisters can have a meet up someday. Somewhere. 

The rest of the time was spent with my family. Playing cards. Talking about the "old days" learning about my second cousins and what they're up to in life. 

Like I said, it was fun. We hardly slept and I am sure I gained some weight. But we also hiked up a mountain and did a lot of family bonding. A perfect little summer vacation. 

Friday, July 7, 2017

My Week in Workouts

I haven't posted my workouts in three weeks. And the last two weeks they have been paltry. So there's not a lot to report. And I'd like to come on here and say I have a great new plan, but I am leaving on vacation next Thursday, and I don't want to start anything new until I get back.

Right now I think I want to focus on running. Tracy is taking a running class one of the running clubs in town offers. I didn't sign up for it (even though she asked me to several times) because it's on Wednesday evenings, which is just not good with my summer schedule. Any other night and I would have. But it's got her re-inspired. And I want to take advantage of that.

She is going running four times a week. And even though I don't want to do that schedule, I want her to motivate me and us to push each other. I need to get back to one run with her and one on my own each week. And then I need to add sprints or treadmill runs to one or two of my weight days.

This week I just need to get back to working out in general. Tracy is on vacation so the only thing that is motivating me is BodyCombat and lawn work.

But at least I have my eating back in check from the holiday.

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Pact: gone but not forgotten

At the beginning of the year, I signed up for the Pact App. You agree to work out X amount of times per week (five for me!) and then you are paid by the slackers who don't live up to their agreement. I also wagered to log my meals every single day.

If you are the slacker you lose $5/day.

I never missed.

I also, made very little money.

But it did get me to work out a few times that I otherwise might not have. At least twice last week while I was sick.

But in general, they weren't good workouts and in at least two cases, I probably would have been better just sleeping.

On average I made about $1.50 a week. But I was just getting paid for doing what I was going to do anyway.

My goal was to keep it in there for one year to see how much I made. But last week they sent an email out that said they were going out of business. So I guess it's over. I could have done it another week. But I decided the end of six months was a good time to stop.

So I finished up my week and cancelled.

I made $36.90!

For just working out and eating. And logging it all. Which can get tedious, but it was worth it.

I am a little disappointed I didn't make it a whole year. $74 a year would have got me a new pair of running shoes.

As it is, I can get half a pair.

But I might look for a similar app. I need something to motivate me...

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

So Sorry

I've been gone a long time. I have so many excuses. But I can't remember them all now. Basically, work was crazy busy. Then I got sick. For like ten days. Not that I missed work, but not feeling well really drags you down. Then I was on vacation for the holiday. And now here I am.

And obviously I haven't wanted to log in to say how awesome I am doing, because it would be a lie.

And so I avoided blogging because I had nothing to say.

But now I have so much to say.

Like, my weight is up because I was on vacation for four days.

And I have been half-assing my workouts.

And eating like it's national hot-dog eating day.

And margarita drinking.

Cause it kind of was.

But I am tired of feeling fluffly. And tired of feeling weak. And wish I was moving forward in my workouts instead of falling back.

But I leave for vacation a week from tomorrow. And part of me is all, why start now.

But I won't fall into that pattern.

I have one week to hit it hard.

And then I will be in the right mind-set for vacation. Which will be: eat wisely and workout.

But for now I need to go to the grocery store. And get back to the gym.

And back to blogging.

And over this cough once and for all.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday -- Macro Cycling Week 3

Starting Weight: 9 pounds
Week 2 Average: 6.3 pounds
Week 3 Average: 5.6 pounds
Week 3 Low: 4.2 pounds

This was a fair week. Another half pound down, makes me pretty happy. I was not as consistent, so I am happy with that number. I had a tough weekend: father's day pizza buffet!

I didn't go off the rails. Exactly. But I did have three pieces of dessert pizza. I mean. Three. Pieces. Who needs three pieces. One would have sufficed. Two would have been pushing it. But at least I didn't have that on top of overdoing it on regular pizza. I ate a light lunch so I could enjoy the pizza. And then I had a light dinner. I guess that's balance.

Anyway, my weight's been up since the weekend. And that seems to be a pattern I need to work on. But I am doing well and seeing a half pound loss is just dandy.

Sorry I have been a worthless blogger lately. All my free time is taken up with planning a July vacation, getting work done on my yard and car, and trying to enjoy summer. All my work time is taken up working. Ridiculous.

Plus, I'm a little our of things to run about. I mean, I'm just doing the same things. Over and over. Not really increasing my running or my weight lifting. Not eating differently. Just truckin' along.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday -- Macro Cycling Week 2

Starting Weight : 9 pounds
Week 1 Average: 7.7 pounds
Week 2 Average: 6.3 pounds
Week 2 Low: 4 pounds

I have been really consistent for the last two weeks. And it is showing. I had a good pound and a half loss this week. I saw a great low number four on Monday morning and I have settled into a routine.

That's almost a three pound loss in two weeks. Which is a little inflated because I was up from Memorial day. But it didn't just fall off in two days, so I'm not thinking it was all sodium. I'm definitely going to keep it up another two weeks and see if I can get myself down another couple pounds.

I can't say I love eating all those carbs. But I now fill my life with skim milk, and toast and cereal and limit my cheese and peanut butter. Luckily cereal and bread are cheaper than all that cheese and peanut butter I used to go through.

I do like that I have a couple of days where I can eat high fat. So I can do summer fun with Samantha by eating ice cream on Wednesdays and have donuts with Dan once a week on Sundays.

So far I am not noticing any change in energy level. I don't understand why I don't have more energy by eating carbs. And I don't really notice a pattern on the scale of when I eat more fats. It is not being very consistent right now, which I would have thought it would since I am going three days in a row with the same macros. But my stress levels and sleep levels have been all over the place.

I have done something dumb this week where I convince myself I am going to workout in the morning and then I wake up and change my mind. I reset my alarm and then I never fall back to sleep. That's the worst. If I am not going to workout I at least should be sleeping.

Looking back through some old photos I notice that last year at this time, I was at the final stages of my reverse diet. I was eating almost 2300 calories. It seems quite glorious. And makes me think maybe I should start reversing in July. If I could ever get down to my "goal weight" I definitely would. I just want to get stronger, I don't need to get smaller.

Friday, June 9, 2017

My Week in Workouts

I did a good job of working out a lot this week. Actually making the effort to get a workout in when I know I am going ot be busy or have social plans or be too tired. I should be proud of that. But I can't say I had any really good workouts this week. I am still just going through the motions. Not getting stronger or faster or feeling like I really kicked-ass at all. Just doing it.

And some weeks I guess that's enough.

Saturday I started off great. BodyCombat class. Then I stayed after for some Chest work. I hate working chest. I don't really see any use for having a strong chest, I don't notice it in my clothes, and I don't seem to get much stronger. So it's a good thing to tack on to the end of Combat, which I do love. I make myself do 5x5 heavy bench press and then 5x3 pushups and let myself call it a day.

Sunday I did my scheduled 4:1 interval run for 30 minutes and then pull-ups in the park. I slept in too late and the morning got away from me, and soon it was too hot. I did the runs, I just let myself go slow. Which is alright.

Monday I did leg day. But the gym was packed. And the squat rack (where I work on my deadlifts) were full each time I went and checked. Even the machines were busy. So I alternated a 50 rep lift with 5 minutes on the elliptical. It was a fine workout. And my legs were sore the next day. So I guess that's a win. I would like to start bringing squats back into my routine. Since dropping our of PT I don't really know what I am supposed to do. But I figure if I start light, I can take this opportunity to build everything up together. I haven't really done squats since January.

Tuesday I knew I needed to workout in the morning. But I couldn't convince myself to get up and go to the gym. So I made and at home work out. I told you all about it here!

Wednesday, mowing was my workout.

Thursday I took my rest day. Tracy was supposed to run with me in the morning, but she wasn't feeling great. So we postponed to Friday. I had evening plans to have dinner with friends. So I used it as my rest for the week.

Friday Tracy was sick. I went anyway! Started off so proud of myself. Then my GPS would not locate me. I can hardly imagine myself running without any stats. So I just went for a walk instead. People claim walking is a fine workout. But I jsut do not burn enough calories walking. I can't make my legs move faster. And walking is the only thing that hurts that spot on my knee. Might have been better to go back to sleep. 

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday -- Macro Cycling Week 1

Starting Weight: 9 pounds
Week 1 Average Weight: 7.7 pounds
Week 1 Lowest Weight:7 pounds

So I started over last week. Really committed. Ya know! With new numbers. Which I followed perfectly by the way. For eight straight days now. And my weight has come down. V-E-R-Y S-L-O-W-L-Y. So apparently those four pounds I had gained over the weekend last week wasn't just salt and bloat. It was real fat. Or something.

So I relisted my starting weight. I mean starting weight is arbitrary. But I need something to compare to. So I was nine pounds at the start of my new macro plan. And the start of June. As saddened as I am from that. At least it only lasted a day. And then I was back down.

But this week my weight went 9 - 8 - 8 - 7.4 - 7.2 - 7.2 - 7.2 - 7. That's the right direction, but obviously, not too speedy. I mean, to compare, last week my average was 7 pounds, and my average was 5.2. So...

It is was it is.

This week I did perfectly. Including the weekend. And it's been stressful with work. So I am really proud of myself for having a good week with food as well as getting in all my workouts.

I am getting more used to the low-fat life-style. Back to holding the cheese on my sandwiches and skipping the fries. I haven't had much peanut butter lately, but that's okay, I haven't missed it much. Skim chocolate milk has become my friend and luckily there are a lot of yummy summer treats that are just carbs - popsicles! And then the two days that I do get to have high fat, I am enjoying plenty of cheese and maybe a donut!

We'll see if my weight continues to fall. Even slowly. I mean .2 pounds a day is still a pound a week.And technically, I lost two pounds this week. I just see it jump up a pound or even two a day, why can't it also fall like that?

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

At Home Tuesdays

Tuesdays are my busiest days of work for the week. I do storytime in the morning for around 40 kids. And then in the afternoon we have our weekly Summer Reading events. We get such big crowds and have such a small space that we have back-to-back programs. The first program fills up an hour before it starts and I have to take care of crowd-management. That includes telling people the program is full and explaining that they can't come in. The second session is less busy, but I am usually so exhausted from arguing with parents about fire codes and their children's safety, that I am already drained. And who wants to watch the same act twice in a row. If I am lucky, I can talk a coworker into watching for me.

But it's not-stop all day. And I am too tired to work out after all of it.

So I knew that I needed to get up early and workout.

I didn't want to run on my own. And I didn't want to lose as much sleep as would be required to drive to the gym and workout for an hour.

So I decided to make up a workout at home: Spin bike and light arms.

And here are amazing things about working out at home:
1) You can wear the same outfit you wore to the gym yesterday.
2) You can wear as much or as little of an outfit as you wish. I mean, I considered not wearing a shirt. Then I considered not wearing pants.
3) You don't have to waste 30 minutes driving to or from the gym.
4) You don't have to use earbuds to listen to your music.
5) You can take ridiculous selfies of yourself with pony-tail bangs.

My goal was to do 10 minutes spin bike - 50 reps bis/tris/shoulders - 5 minutes spin bike - 50 reps bis/tris/shoulders - 5 minutes spin bike - 50 reps bis/tris/shoulders. But I ran out of time for the last set of 50. So I got 20 minutes of biking but only 2 different exercises.

I think I will do it again next week. And I will work up a playlist that is one song spin - one song triceps - one song spin - one song biceps - one song spin - one song shoulders... kind of like in bodypump. It's been so long since I took a bodypump class though I am not sure I remember any routines.

Have I mentioned that my brain is fried?

Monday, June 5, 2017

Now Summer is Making me Fat

So summer has arrived here. And I am not even talking about summer at the library. It. Is. Hot.

It was 90+ degrees yesterday. I even broke down and turned on my Air Conditioning. Which is not like me. I can usually take it until it gets much warmer. But my house is just so hot upstairs! Since one of goals right now is eight hours of sleep, I knew I'd sleep much better if it was cooler. And I knew I'd sleep much later if the birds and sunlight weren't waking me at 5 am.

I even ran outside yesterday. And it was hot. But I worked on my tan a bit, so that was nice. And I need to get used to the heat eventually.

But back to the point of my post: I am certain that this humidity and heat is causing me to retain water more. I mean, we are all aware of how our wedding rings slip off of our fingers in winter when we're cold, but fit much better when we're warm. Lately I have been waking up and they are tight. Like I am bloated. Like I ate a gallon of pop-corn. And I know I didn't.

So I did a bit of research on the interwebs. And it told me that your body holds on to water more in the summer. That it tries to prevent rapid salt loss, so it clings to that. And that you can add "several pounds" due to this water retention.

Honestly, I didn't need the internet to tell me. I can tell by how my rings and pants fit.

But I am trying to realize that it's also effecting the scale. So I don't need to be so hard on myself. I'm doing everything right. It's going to be 90% humidity until September, so I just have to keep working!

Friday, June 2, 2017

My Week in Workouts

I had a good week of workouts. Well, a full week of workouts. I guess they were good. I am most proud of myself for working out six days. Six day! Even though work is so busy right now that it's a workout itself. Some days I never sit down. I get my 10,000 steps without even needing to workout.

But I also had a holiday weekend which gave me a bonus day. And a night with 14 hours of sleep. So that helped.

Saturday I started the week out great. A BodyCombat workout plus chest day. I have been loving doing 50 reps right now. My muscles burn a lot. But obviously I am not setting any records doing this. This week I noticed that my chest muscles weren't as sore.  I might need to switch back to 5x5 for a while. It's probably best to do a routine for a few weeks and mix it up. If only for my sanity.

Sunday I mowed the lawn. It was a lovely workout and I hadn't done it for over two weeks. Thanks to a crazy busy work schedule and the fact that it was raining for five straight days. Boy did the lawn need it.

Monday was the Memorial day holiday so I took a bonus BodyCombat class. They made it extra long, extra tough and extra great. So I stayed for the whole thing!

Tuesday I went back to work and then went straight to the park afterward to run 30 minutes and do my pull-ups. I could not get my legs to run. Seriously. I was planning on 4:1 intervals, but after my first two minutes I was done. Then I walked for a minute and tried to run again. Still not having it. I decided to let myself run off an on when I needed it. Then about ten minutes in something stung/bit me and I was just totally over that workout. By fifteen minutes in, when I turned around, I needed to pee. And I still had to do fifteen minutes. I switched to 1:4 intervals, just running for one minute at a time, and that was plenty. By the time I got back to the park, I didn't know if I'd wet my pants and the park was full so I couldn't get in to do pull-ups. Fail for this one.

On Wednesday I went after work again. My hope was to run on the treadmill for a half a mile. Again, my energy level was so low that my legs wouldn't move. It must be the long and hard days at work. That's all I can chalk it up to. I'm even eating more carbs! I did arm day (biceps, triceps and shoulders) mixed in with the eliptical/stairmill as my cardio. It was a fine workout. I might need to do arms twice a week. There just isn't time.

Thursday I met Tracy in the morning. It was great. No faster than previous weeks. But the weather was perfect and I had more energy in the morning that I had in the evening. Plus talking to someone makes the time go by much faster.

Friday was my rest day again. But I am ready to kick it another week.

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday - Macro Cycling

Starting Weight: 7.4 pounds
Week Five Average: 7.0 pounds
Week Five Low: 5.2

As I mentioned yesterday, this weekend was bad to me. And it really skewed my data. That's the thing with averages. I hope this was just a bad week.

Because my eating wasn't that bad. In fact, my weight was dropping the five days in a row that I had high (but steady) carbs. I just need to get things under control on the weekend. I can't undo all my hard work. And, as I said yesterday, I am setting my macros a bit differently. More high carb days.

I also made a comment that said my average fat intake would still be the same. But that's not actually true. I lowered my fat intake average and upped my carb intake. And then I spread it out more so I do get more fat on high fat days, but there's a lot more low fat days during the week.

I hate that the scale is up right now (NINE pounds from my goal!) and I hate that I have no energy because Summer Reading is zapping it and that my pants are tight. But I am trying to not get discouraged. And drink 133oz. of water to wash that bloat away. And get more than 8 hours of sleep because I need it right now. Plus the added carbs should help with energy. I know if will be back down before I know it. It's just hard to see your hard work erased like that.

Perhaps I could remember that next time I am eating 48 chips and two brownies!

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Fat Makes Me Fat

When I first started carb-cycling I was prepared for my scale to not be as consistent as it had once been. I had read the facts telling me that the more carbs you eat the more water you store and therefore, your scale might go up.

I didn't like the flucuation, but I understood what was happening. It actually made me become much more comfortable with weighing myself every day. And understanding that the number isn't a reflection of you or your hard work, it's a reflection of your liver and kidneys and the salt molecules and bodily functions. It definitely took the power away from the scale. And that was great.

But it never seemed tol follow a pattern where I have a high card day and boom the scale was higher the next day. It would be up in a couple of days or even lower the next day. And as math person, that really was confusing and baffling.

And then last week I started wondering if it was actually the high fat days that made my scale go up. So I had five low fat (high carb) days in a row. Just to get some consistency back. And it made my scale go down. Down again. Remain the same. Down again.

Hmmm... am I on to something here?

Then this weekend I allowed myself two high fat days (because fat is actually way more fun than carbs!) and my scale went up two pounds. And then two more pounds. Even though I was technically eating  low carb.

Then Monday came and I went to a BBQ and ate all kinds of thing and I am not happy with myself. But mostly it was chips and sodium. And too much of everything and I gained another two pounds.

So I am up six pounds from Friday morning.

But I think I have discovered something: fat makes me fat. Even if it's temporary. Those high fat days are probably not good for me.

So I am going to try a lower-fat carb cycle. I wish it wasn't even called carb cycling. Just cycling. Macro-cycling is what I am going to call it. I am going to have five high carb days and two high fat days a week.

There could be a lot of factors going into my non-scientific study: fatty things have more salt. I do more estimating on the weekends when I am eating my high fat days. I'm eating more chips off of Samantha's plate than I am counting.

But I do know that my scale was down last week, even though I was eating 210 carbs every day. And it's hard to limit myself to only 55 grams of fat, but sometimes you have to do hard things.

So here's my current plan:

Monday (high carb) -- Lifting Arms + TM :  140p/210c/55f
Tuesday (high carb) -- Lifting Chest and Back + TM :  140p/210c/55f
Wednesday (high fat) -- Rest Day : 140p/161c/77f
Thursday (high carb) -- Yardwork Day :  140p/210c/55f
Friday (high carb) -- Run with Tracy :  140p/210c/55f
Saturday (high carb) -- BodyCombat + Legs :  140p/210c/55f
Sunday (high fat) -- Run and Pull-ups : 140p/161c/77f

My problem up to this point is not changing My Fitness Pal and just winging it or letting myself have whatever day I prefer. But I am inputting the data today. So it's set.

I should also note, that I will be eating the same amount of fats during the week, they're just spread out. So maybe nothing will change. But all I can think is: I can't wait for peanut butter Sundays!

Friday, May 26, 2017

My Week in Workouts

So I know that nobody cares about my workouts but if I don't post them here, than I have no way of referring back to them. And most importantly, I have no shame in just skipping them, because who is even going to know? So I have to list them somewhere. Sorry if that's annoying or not of any interest to anyone but myself.

This week was a bad week. It is my busiest week at work. And I allowed myself to slack on the workout parts of life. I kept my attitude in check and didn't hit anyone this week. I didn't get fired this week. I hit my 10k steps every day, easily because I never sat down at work. And I really tried to get enough sleep this week and hit my macros every day. Which is saying something when I just want to go drink margaritas and vent to Dan about my day at work. But I didn't.

And all of those things are wins.

So these workouts were just icing on the cake. The cake that I had one small slice of and then never looked at again!

Saturday was easy because I had the day off of work. I had to head to Omaha in the afternoon for Josie's birthday party, but I got to make it to class. I don't know if I was just exhausted, dehydrated (I left my bottle of water in the car) or in a hot, windless place in class but I thought I was going to passout about half way through. I left after 30 minutes and went to my car to get my water bottle. I had to sit down and cool off for a few minutes before I could go work on some shoulder weights.

Sunday I went to class again. I felt like I had missed out my weekly dose of Combat. Plus, I needed to get my aggression out some way. It was a much better class. I stuck it out through my normal 50 minutes and then I worked my legs a bit. Still just concentrating on my hamstrings.
Monday - Wednesday I took rest days.

Thursday was the start of Summer Reading and I met Tracy in the morning for a 5k. It's the second year in a row that we've done that and I like that we've started a tradition. I always have a bunch of extra energy that day and I need someone to meet me if I am going to work out at all, so it was a win-win. We're still doing the 3/2 intervals which really seem to be good for us. We seem to be picking up our pace slightly. Hopefully that's a trend that continues. I think an interval run is better in a lot of ways. Especially as it starts to heat up this summer.

And that's all I got done this week. I didn't even have time to mow my yard -- plus it rained for like five straight days.

But Summer Reading has started, which is busy but not stressful. And we're headed into a three day weekend. I am looking forward to this:

Saturday - BodyCombat + Arms
Sunday - Lawn
Monday - BodyCombat + Shoulders
Tuesday - Solo Run + Back
Wednesday - Leg Day
Thursday - Rest
Friday - Run with Tracy

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday - Week 4

Starting Weight: 7.4 pounds
Week Four Average: 5.7 pounds
Week Four Lowest: 4.2 pounds

I finally had a good and consistent week. I promised myself as work got more stressful I would worry less about getting my workouts in, but I would worry more about sticking to my macros and getting enough sleep.

And that has worked. Not in making Summer Reading less stressful, but in getting the scale to finally start moving the right way. I am still only averaging less than a half-pound per week, but I am okay with that at this point in time.

I ate a donut for dinner the other night.

And still made it fit!

I am not liking that my weight fluctuates so much since my carbs fluctuate. It doesn't seem to follow a pattern, but it's all over from 4-7-6-5-4-7. This week I am trying to have more high-carb days (which aren't my favorites, I prefer high peanut butter days) because I think it will keep my energy high for work, and keep me eating fruit and I'd also like to see if my weight is stalling because I eat too much fat. Bye cheese on my sandwiches.

I am feeling good right now though. I drink skim chocolate milk every night and that satisfies my sweet tooth. And I am getting eight hours of sleep and working 44 hours this week. But it's going to be over soon. It always is.

Friday, May 19, 2017

The Four Day Consistency Hang-Up

Here's the deal: I eat right for four days and my scale starts paying attention. Maybe I even go a fifth. Or sixth! Then something happens and I don't eat right. Or I have too many carbs. Or really more often, too much fat. Because donuts! And then my scale jumps up two pounds. After a couple of days it might come back down one. But it takes four days for it to return to normal.

And then the cycle starts all over again.

And returning to normal is the exact direction I want the scale to be living. I want it to find a pattern of going downward.

So this morning, after having a great week, I was down to 5 pounds from my goal. Finally busting through that seven pound and then six pound plateau. In fact, I could tell that my scale wanted to show me a four, but thought a little better of it.

Now, it's the weekend again and I can not mess this up.

I have a birthday party to go to tomorrow. There will be cake. Cake is not the enemy. I can eat a piece of cake. I can not graze mindlessly on snacks, chips, drinks, cookies and then say screw it and have nachos for dinner.

And then I have to do it all again. And have another consistent week. That is how I will start to see changes.

Next week is going to be hard. I am working more than 40 hours. I have schools to visit, volunteers to train and a library to prepare. And then on Thursday, the chaos begins. And things start to settle down. But we're already preparing how to celebrate on Thursday night. And for some reason it involves food.

It's all about consistency. And wanting to see that scale move more than wanting another cookie.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Weigh-In Wednesday: Carb Cycling

Starting Weight: 7.4 pounds
Week Three Average: 6.7 pounds
Week Three Lowest: 5.2 pounds

This was a pretty bad week. And yet my average is down. But just .1 pound, which isn't really anything. Maybe a sock!

I am not really certain what is going on. Which makes it hard to correct. Here is what I know: I was having a great week last week and woke up Saturday morning down to that 5 pounds. Which was the first time I'd seen the five in a while. I felt like things were definitely headed in the right way.

I made really good choices at Sadie's birthday party: one serving of chips, stuck to water, and hung out outside so I didn't graze on food.

The next morning I was up two pounds. It might have been the sodium from the pizza.

Then it's Mother's Day and I am stressed out and I know I ate too many cookies. But not like a ton.

It's super hot in the house. And I didn't sleep well. I also have a super-early day on Monday. And I wake up another two pounds up. Like a high weight I don't ever want to see again.

It was gone by Tuesday.

So really, I don't know exactly what's going on. Yes, I eat too much sugar. Yes, I eat too much sodium. But something with the heat and sleep and stress and my body just seems to be retaining weight.

I'm just gonna keep going!

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

My 1000th Post

I have had this blog for well over six years. And today I am hitting my 1000th blog post. If I was famous I would do a give-away. But I am not. I get about seven people to read my blog every day. I assume about three of them are my friends. The other four must randomly come upon it.

A lot has changed in almost seven years:

  • My weight is down at least 16 pounds.
  • I think that I am down two jeans sizes.
  • Which is a lot for just 16 pounds
  • But I started lifting a lot more weight.
  • And that has transformed my body.
  • My way of eating is very different. 
  • I'm currently eating 400 more calories a day than I was at the beginning of this blog. 
  • And like 600 more than I was before that. 
  • But I am also eating a lot more protein and a lot alcohol.
  • I have switched gyms.
  • Gotten married.
  • Moved across town. 
  • I met a super supportive group of online ladies who are all focused on the same things. 
  • Found pro-biotics.
  • Stopped getting colds.
  • Became friends with an amazing little girl (now five years old.)
  • I'm slowly trying to win over her little sister.
  • I weighed exactly four pounds less than my friend Jennifer for one day of my life.
  • I started running again.
  • Though not racing.
  • I've started to set more physical goals (running times and pull-ups) rather than scale goals.
  • I think my relationship with the scale changed all around.
  • In the best way possible.
  • And that in turn has left me much more confident and happy with myself. 
So here's my give away to you:
If you are doing everything you can and the scale isn't moving. Who cares, you're amazing because you are doing every thing right. And if you're not doing everything you can, then do something more. Just one more thing. But it's not about your gravitational relationship with a number on a scale. It's about how hard you work every day to be the best you. That's what fitness is about. And that's what life is about. 

I am still on a journey to be the best version of me. Every. Single. Day.