Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Wednesday Weigh-In

Current weight: 20.6 pounds
Weekly GAIN: 2.4 pounds

That was pretty unexpected. I thought I had an okay week. In fact, since Saturday, I thought things were pretty spot on. So my guess (or hope) is that is some fluke weigh-in this morning. Hormonal, high sodium, I ate late last night, my body is retaining water from some hard workouts I have done lately. Whatever. I am not going to let it effect me. I have been doing well and I have every intention of keeping that up.

I know that I need to set more specific goals and have an end-date in mind, if I am going to accomplish my fitness plans. So while I was looking at a calendar yesterday, I realized that my friend Jen's birthday is twelve weeks from today. You probably don't remember, but last April (while weighing EIGHT pounds less than I do now) I tried on all my shorts. I found a green pair that were kind of tight. I remember wearing these only to Jen's 29th birthday party, when I was at my near-lowest weight of all time (about twenty pounds from where I am now.) My goal for last year was to wear them to her 33rd birthday last year. But that didn't actually happen. They did seem looser, but I was at the exact same weight. So of course, being a lofty goal setter, my goal is to wear those dang shorts this year. Assuming I need to be at least five pounds lower than I was last year, I am looking at a 13 pound loss. It was only 11 yesterday, before my random two-pound gain, and that seemed a lot easier. Now I am thirteen pounds away. But I still feel confident I can lose that before Jen's birthday.

But I am going to have to buckle down and make tough decisions.

But having a goal is exactly what I need. In the past, I have had bigger goals (my 30th birthday, my wedding, etc...) But I am hoping that Jen will keep me accountable. And that I will be so excited to wear those shorts, I just might buy a new pair. Shopping should always motivate me!

My goals for this week:
1) 1600 calories intake average.
2) Five workout sessions.
3) Five servings of fruits and vegetables a day (this is always a challenge)
4) Nine cups of water per day. Minimum!

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Transformation Tuesday

Who doesn't love a good transformation story?

But, I go to the gym a lot. And for the most part, I don't see people change. Is that because most people are already fit and just go to maintain their life? I would say 80% of people in an average Combat class are at a happy weight. Maybe they think they need to lose five to ten pounds, but they don't. And five pounds isn't going to be obvious to those of us in class with them. Another 10% of people are like me. We could lose twenty to thirty pounds. It would be noticeable. But we don't. And the last 10% are quite over weight. Those that could lose 30-70 pounds. I am always so proud when I see those folks come. And they keep at it. And you hope good things will happen for them. But it doesn't seem to. There was one exception. She lost 50+ pounds and then she stopped coming.

My point is: I love seeing pictures of Transformation Tuesday. But it doesn't seem to happen in real life.

And it disappoints me that I haven't changed in the last year. Or if anything I have gained five pounds. I am saddened that I am headed the wrong direction. Especially after all the hard work I put in. All the hours I devote to living healthfully.

Last night I was sweating it out on the Spin bike between weight sessions and I happened to notice these two ladies who were king of reclining on bikes. Talking to each other. Checking Facebook on their phones. Or texting someone. They were there probably thirty minutes. Wearing long sleeve shirts. Not working up a sweat. And then they went home.

And by no means, do I want to call anyone out. Maybe they were working as hard as they could. Maybe they are brand new to exercise. Maybe they are working out an injury. But I immediately thought about how they were half-assing it there. And what a waste of time it was.

Then I realized: Hey lady, take a look at yourself first!

Maybe I'm just half-assing it too. Sure, I go to the gym five to seven hours a week. Sure, I burn a good amount of calories. But then I go home and treat myself to donuts and nachos and fruit cocktails. What good is burning 600 calories if I am just going to drink them down an hour later?

This process takes real  dedication. Not a lazy thirty minutes on the bikes. Not just going through the motions in BodyPump. But real. life. long. hard. work.

And I am ready for it.

I need to remember that I have transformed before. I was a success story. I inspired people.

And I can do it again.

Monday, April 28, 2014

Weekend Whirlwind

This was the first two day weekend I have had in three weeks. And it was booked full. I often liked to have things scheduled for a weekend. I don't like having "nothing to do!" On the other hand, I don't like being so scheduled that I can't relax. Or nap. I really like naps I the weekend. Really.

I have reached that place in adulthood where I can rarely sleep in. I wake up the same time on weekends as I do on weekdays. Probably because I'm not out partying until 2 am. Instead I go to bed about the same time all the time. Anyway, I love a good nap on the weekend as a reward of getting up "early" and I feel cheated out of a weekend if I don't get one.

Saturday I headed back to Combat in the first time in what seems like forever. Though probably just a week and a half. Steph has been out of town and it has been way to easy to skip without her. Plus, I had to work last weekend, and then it was Easter and such. We arrived to find devastating news: our favorite instructor (Sandy) is moving to Iowa and this was to be her LAST CLASS. We were near tears. She did a perfect send off, all of her favorite songs. And it was hard. The two instructors replacing her are our runner-up favorites, so it's the best scenario it can possibly be... but still: so sad.

Saturday morning after my workout, was mine to spend as I wished. So I did what any young, new home owner would do: bought some garden power tools! A cordless hedge trimmer to be exact. It was better than Christmas. I got something I wanted and didn't feel guilty for spending too much money. Then I set to work cutting down all the ornamental grasses that regrow each year in my yard. That was fun. This isn't even the tallest/strongest of it. Just the messiest!

Then I took this patch of dirt, which we assume was the old owners garden:

And I turned over all the dirt, raked it some and made it look pretty and ready for some vegetables! 

Also, I got my very own rake and shovel. Cause you shouldn't borrow those from your mom every year!

This was another work out in itself. In fact, Sunday morning my butt muscles were extremely sore. And it's got me thinking about ways I can dig in a garden every day. Unfortunately, turning the same dirt over and over isn't as difficult as packed dirt. So I'll need to find different people who need me to do some digging in their yard. Also, my upper back was sore as well as my arms. Gardening: a great workout.

Saturday evening, I was coerced into going to a Bachelorette Party. I had originally RSVP'd no, because I don't have a lot of interest in party buses and being up until 2am. But Jennifer talked me into going just for dinner. It was fun. But it was also extra calories.

Sunday, I allowed myself to sleep in until 10 o'clock. It was glorious. IT was rainy and dark and I actually got to catch up on my sleep. I had a nice relaxing breakfast and then got ready to go to a baby shower. Where I enjoyed two mini cupcakes. And I shouldn't have. 

The priceless photo op of the shower: Little Sammie reading to baby Xavier.  Innocence!

While I had ten minutes to waste yesterday afternoon, before heading to my aunt's house for family time and pitch playing. I finally found some sandals I wanted. But now to pick which pair...

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Try to Keep Reading

April has definitely been awash. At least in the fitness and weigh loss blogging world. But it's another week and I am back with a fresh start. Though you've heard that a million times. I am busy getting things done around the house, which I can't wait to show you. And I feel like the last three weeks (or months) was just the time off I needed. Now I can see Summer starting to poke through and I am ready to conquer life head on. Except I don't feel too well today. I am not sure what exactly is causing it. I am a bit nauseous, though also starving. It could be because the heat at work can't figure out that it's 70 degrees outside, so it's oscillating between blowing hot and cold air around and that can make me sick. It could also be that I fell off a deck this weekend, well that's kind of an exaggeration. It was more like a step. I fell off a step. All while it was raining and I was carrying a toddler and in order to save her life I did the splits, bruised up an entire leg, and ripped my jeans. Today I am sort of sore all over. And that kind of pain can be hard to endure. I am popping Tylenol and staying busy to help it go away fast. I could also be dehydrated, because weekends are hard. And I drank only five cups of water over the course of the weekend. I also had too much sugar. And my body isn't happy when I don't eat healthy.

Regardless, I promise to be a better blogger. I want you to keep reading. I am going to stop making excuses. Here are a few reasons I think you should stick around.
  1. I absolutely need to do something different before all my pants stop fitting.
  2. I can't wait to teach you everything I've learned about kitchen lighting! I know you're thrilled.
  3. And you'll want to see what I used to replaced the gigantic florescence box in my kitchen.
  4. It's really spring here now. I can't complain about the drive to the gym any longer. 
  5. I have been busy pinning a bunch of new recipes I want to try.
  6. How else are you going to hear stories of me falling off the deck?
  7. I am considering hiring a personal trainer. You know I am going to write all about that adventure.
  8. Soon I will become handy and then my blog could morph into me showing you all the handy work I have done around the house.
  9. Same goes with crafty. Soon.
  10. I wanted to come up with more reasons... but I have been working on this post since last Sunday (five days now) and this is all I have come up with.
  11. I have three other posts I have started but never finished because I was trying to get this posted.
  12. I even missed Weigh-in Wednesday (which hopefully I can finish up here and get posted today as well) in order to list reasons for you to stick around.
  13. I need you to motivate me!

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Weigh-In Wednesday

Current Weight: 18.2 pounds
Weekly Loss: 0 pounds

I am exactly where I was last week. And only .2 pounds down from two weeks ago still. Generally this would make me cranky. But the truth is: I am not putting in any work. I actually had this conversation with Dan this week:
Dan: Did you go to the gym today?
Karrie: No, I skipped.
Dan: You've been skipping a lot lately. What's going on with you?
Karrie: It seems I spend six hours of my life at the gym and nothing happens. Until I get my eating under control, my weight is never going to change. And why would I waste six hours of my life for nothing. Plus, it's more than six hours. Every day there is commuting time, extra showering time, waiting for class to start time... I probably spend ten hours a week working on that nothing.

Dan doesn't think I eat too much. Dan doesn't understand that I can't eat 1600 calories of donuts and not gain weight. Dan doesn't understand that his metabolism is functioning at a much higher rate than mine is. If I am going to win this battle, I am going to need Dan to understand. I don't have to eat clean to lose weight. But I can't eat to his standards.

So the truth is: I haven't been trying. I guess I am lucky that I haven't gained more weight.

I don't know how many times I can keep coming back here and say: things will get better.

But the truth is: they've got to.

Monday, April 21, 2014

The End of Marathon Mondays

Another week has gone by and once again I did absolutely zero running. In fact, I worked out very little this week. It's just not like me. If it's not one thing, it's another. For instance, this week my excuse is:

It's Beautiful Outside!

So after I sit at work all day and have people tell me how wonderful the weather is, I think to myself: I am not going to spend the next hour and a half taking a class inside where I can't even see the outdoors. I am going to get out there and enjoy it. 

Then instead of going to the gym, I convince myself that I am going to go running in the neighborhood.

I start to dread it a bit. Cause I absolutely hate to run.

So I tell myself I can do something else outside. Walk? Ride a bike?

I go home to change, instead of putting on the clothes I brought for myself. 

I see a snack.

I decide I am too hungry to go work out. 

I eat dinner. It might be healthy. It might not be. 

I might even convince Dan, or let him convince me, that eating at a restaurant where we can sit outside will be even more enjoyable. So we do that instead.

It might or might not involve margaritas. Cause nothing makes me happier than enjoying beautiful weather, while sitting outside drinking margaritas. 

And you know there are only going to be so many beautiful days. Before it gets too hot, and most importantly, too humid to be outside. 

And then I am too full to workout.

So I tell myself: Tomorrow, I will take my clothes to work and head straight to the gym, before something makes me change my mind. 

But this story is on repeat. 

Except tonight. Today is beautiful. I would love to go home. Sit on my patio set. Drink something fruity. Get Dan to take me out to dinner. 

But something has to change. 

Tonight I will go to class. 

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Weigh-In Wednesday

Current Weight: 18.2 pounds
Weekly Loss: 0.2 pounds

Well this wasn't the fantastic week I was hoping for. But I guess I am happy that the scale didn't keep moving up like it had been.

I don't even know what to say about this. I haven't been motivated enough lately. It has become way to easy to skip the gym, to have another cookie, to just watch TV, to not care. I haven't been logging all my calories, so I have no idea how I'm doing. 

I know I need to make a real commitment. And every morning I wake up with such good intentions. I pack my bag for the gym, I eat a healthy breakfast. I get to work and drink water. Maybe instill motivated by lunch and grab subway or eat my packed lunch. Maybe I can even pass on the cookies and muffins on the table. But by four o'clock I've decided I don't want to go to the gym. I just want to go home. I wang to enjoy the beautiful weather, even though I know I won't do anything but watch television or look at Pinterest projects online. I let myself eat the junk food. I'm too tired to make dinner when I get home, so maybe I just eat snack. They're probably not too unhealthy. But then I eat some chocolate. And some chips. Or I go out to eat. That's never really heathy. Though I did just pick up sub sandwiches the other night. 

I'm just waiting for a snap. Something to push me down the right path. I thought I had it, but then I get worn down. Weight loss is a tough mental game. 

Game on!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Water Water Everywhere

I know I need to drink more water. Well, I know I need to drink water more consistently. I have days where I drink twelve glasses without counting and days when I look back and realize that I drank none. I also know that drinking water definitely helps with weight loss. My guess (hope!) is that these random five pounds I gained last month are just water weight and will come off fast. I know I am retaining water/salt by the way my rings fit. And right now they are tight. That is not normal for me. Usually I am wondering if they're going to fall off.

Also, I usually have near perfect skin. I mean, not really perfect, but no blemishes. It's very dry. I moisturize at least twice a day. But this week I notice that I have two zits. What? I am not fifteen anymore. I've never noticed that I had good skin from drinking water. But I sure do notice when I don't.

Moral of the story: I need to drink more water.

Last week I decided I needed to make this change on Wednesday. The same day I decided it would be cute to wear tights. Tights and fifteen trips to the bathroom just don't mix. By Thursday I was over that.

But after the rings and breakouts happening this weekend, I am recommitted. I must drink at least nine cups every day. And when I work out, I need to drink twelve. It's easy to drink another three at the gym. It's not even hard to drink nine at work. It's hard to drink nine when I am sitting working around the house.

Today I wore jeans. Did you know studies show people are more productive at work if they are wearing jeans? Take that policy to your administration. I know I am productive when I dressed comfortably. And I know that I am not scared to drink lots of water when I only have a belt, one zipper and one button to worry about.

By day three I will be used to the water again and won't have to make a trip to the restroom every hour.

Time to fill up again!

Monday, April 14, 2014

Marathon Mondays

Well, another week has come and gone and I have done no running what so ever. That makes two weeks in a row. Not good. I'm going to lose everything I had gained. Which was really nothing at all. Except my hamstrings weren't on fire for five days post run any more. I will be sorry to lose that.

But I am not quitting. That's why I don't stop posting for Monday Marathons. I want to point out that I didn't follow through.

I am not sure what is getting in the way of my running. The weather has been up and down around here lately. Eighty degrees one day and snowing and 30 the next. That's pretty typical. I don't mind snow this time of year, it all melts the next day.

The truth is: I didn't work out very much last week at all. I just got busy. Doing house repairs mostly. And buying stuff for our house. And filing my taxes. And thinking about taking out a small loan to pay for those taxes. And the house stuff. I still have a large hole in my kitchen ceiling. Every day I research what kind of light I want to hang there instead. I have learned so much about lighting this week. Maybe some day I will pass that knowledge on to you. Once I actually have a light to show you. For now, I have a lot of useless information and hole.

I did get to Combat both Saturday and Sunday plus a core class on Sunday as well. This is not enough working out.

I have been watching what I eat, but haven't made the healthiest choices all of the time. I'll pass up on mayonnaise at lunch, just to have a cookie or two at dinner. I can't get committed to this process for more than a day (maybe even a meal) at a time.

I did do some meal planning this weekend and made a trip to the grocery store. I have some favorite and healthy meals planned every night this week. Nothing new. Nothing fancy. Just good old, eat-at-home know-the-calories type meals. This should help get my life back on a normal schedule.

I think it must just be the weather that has me in a mood.

Or that I want to get all these things fixed around my house. Like yesterday.

Or the fact that I just keep trying to get something started.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Weigh-In Wednesday

Weight: 18.4

I had a wake up call yesterday. I started looking through my blog from a year ago and had a realization: I weigh more than I did last April. I know that I didn't lose much weight last summer. It's hard for me to celebrate summer in the way that I would like (drinks by the pool) and still lose weight. I might have lost a pound or five last fall. But I knew that I gained all of that back. What I did not realize was that I am actually heavier than I was a year ago.

Also, I gained four pounds since my last weigh in. Apparently that funeral/family time/dog-sitting/lack of motivation to get back into things was harder on me than I thought.

But I think this is my wake up call.

If you're looking for a sign, this is it Poster print

So I counted the weeks I have left until Summer. Real summer, like when the kids get out of school. Not summer like when the sun is in the right position (or whatever that solstice represents). Six weeks. Yup. Six. Well that scared me even more. I don't even want to think about everything I need to get ready for work. 

In six week I want to be able to wear shorts. The shorts that are in my drawer and only fit if I am in the tens. Not the eighteens. The shorts that would look even better if I was at my goal weight. I want to buy new shorts and know they are my smallest size. Not my bigger size.

So I need to start now. 

How often do I say that anymore? I know what works though. And I have been smacked in the face with a number I am not comfortable with. I have been shaken with the idea that I am growing. Not shrinking. All this work, and I am headed the wrong direction. I am ready to be the old me.

My ready to get serious outfit of the day!

Monday, April 7, 2014

Marathon Mondays

Well this was my first week where I failed on all running accounts. I had plans to do some running with my weights on Tuesday. But it turned into a crazy day (I worked 8-8) and even though I had three hours in the afternoon off, running wasn't at the top of my list. I did make it to the gym that afternoon! Amazing. But I promised myself I didn't have to run. That was the only way to get me there. So it was a good bargain. I did three circuits of weights and the Spin bike instead.

I don't want to start hating running. So if I am dreading it, I don't want to make myself do it. That was the deal so long ago. I was forcing myself to do it. And wanting to die. Or break my leg at least. This time around I want it to be enjoyable. And something that I look forward to (at least look forward to the outcome.)

I am not quitting though. I plan to take that as a rest week from running (it was nice to not have hamstring pain) and get back to it tonight. I owe myself a mile and a half. Though I am kind of dreading it, it's 18-20 minutes and then I am done.

You may have noticed that I disappeared last week. I got really busy with work: Teen Art Show, Meetings, and a training day out of town. Plus I was still dog-sitting until Friday night. I didn't fit in a workout Wednesday, Thursday or Friday. I was exhausted and just didn't have the time. Some times I think sleep is better than working out anyway.

1. Healthy eating
2. Plenty of sleep
3. Lots of Water
4. Working out

Unfortunately, I didn't do well on the other points either. I let myself eat a lot of junk food on Wednesday at my mom's house. Friday I even had french fries that weren't 'worth it'. But the good news was, I didn't gain any weight while I was at my mom's.

I had a busy weekend, but I think I got back on track. Saturday I went to Combat class. It was the first time I forgot my phone, so I couldn't record my heart rate. I was out of sorts because everything was out of place from being at my mom's all week. Saturday night we went to dinner/movie/drinks with a couple people we are trying to befriend. (It's hard to make friends as an adult, but we're trying!) It was fun, and I made smart choices (vegetables at dinner and diet soda with my two drinks). Sunday we celebrated my aunt's birthday with an Italian dinner, but I didn't eat too much. Though I did have a piece of carrot cake. I went to Combat and Core class. I can definitely feel my ab muscles today. They're going to look so good under that layer of fat!

I feel like my life is starting to settle down after a pretty stressful last few weeks. So I am looking forward to getting back into a routine and doing some good things for myself. And probably do a bit more running!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

March 2014 Recap

Well, another month is over and I would say I am no closer to my goals. March did not go as planned. First I got a pinched nerve which put me out of commission for at least a few days. Then Dan's grandma passed away and that led to almost two weeks of family, "celebrations" and other stresses. But let's look at my goals for March:
  • Lose 3.4 pounds and start April at 7 pounds from goal. Blah. Complete Fail. I weigh more now than I did then. I 'm hoping it's water weight from the funeral junk food. But it never turns out that way.
  • This is the time I need to discover the weight room. So I am going to make the lofty goal of 8 weight room sessions (and a four pump classes as well). Though I did really well at actually using the weight room and some weights at home, I only got there six times this month. This needs to improve. But I would definitely say I feel comfortable using the equipment. Now I just need to do it more. And I guess increase things.
  • I want to try at least two new classes. Trying that core class last week made me realize that lots of other classes could be just as fun. So BodyStep, Zumba, Kickboxing with Bags, Yoga. There are lots of possibilities. I tried one new class: Zumba. I had plans to try BodyStep as well, then Steph hurt her knee. She does want to go though. So we'll get it done soon.
  • Okay, I will do 25 push-ups every day.Maybe this will be the month! Nope. This goal has failed me one too many times. 

I don't even feel excited to start a new month. I feel like sitting on the couch and eating potato chips. I don't feel like making new goals because I never achieve them. I worked out twenty three hours this month and I gained six pounds. Or something like that. I was never lower than I was on March 1st, that's for sure. I counted every calorie and it got me no where. 

Regardless of that I made a plan for April. And I got to the gym today, despite having to work from 8 to 8, and dog-sitting. I had a three hour break in the middle, but believe me, after the day I had, a nap was calling my name. So I am pretty proud of myself for hitting the gym, instead of the couch. And I had just as much energy when I was done, if not more. 

So regardless of having no motivation, I guess I'll just keep trucking along. Cause that's all I know how to do.